I suppose it’s undeniable that I’m struggling to maintain the daily writing over here.

I’ve just gotten another new project at work, so at this point I’m pulling 8:00 – 6:30 shifts in an effort to simply keep up. But, given all the layoffs at my company a couple weeks ago, this is just where we are.

It’s sad to me that the New American Dream is simply to keep your job.

Anyway I don’t have a whole lot of time. (I’m actually still getting Teams pings while I write this.)

What I find to be equal parts sad and interesting is that Daphne has begun to struggle, behaviorally, more over the last week while my personal time has become increasingly thin.

She’s wailing more often than she has since…hmm, last summer-ish? Conservatively I’d say she screams/cries about various things 6 to 10 times a day, every single day. And yes, a 10-year-old that screams and stomps and cries and throws things, but can’t actually answer you when you ask what’s causing them to behave that way, is as every bit exhausting and frustrating as it sounds.

I don’t want to confuse correlation with causality here, but it’s enough for my eyes to narrow.

Alas, not sure any of it matters. Until I somehow manage to become independently wealthy so all I have to worry about all day is spending time with/taking care of my daughter, this will be how things are.

Okay, see you tomorrow hopefully.

j.s.